Friday, August 2, 2013

A parable.......

A Parable....

 “And he said unto them, Unto you it is given to know the mystery of the kingdom of God: but unto them that are without, all these things are done in parables” – Mark 4:11 (KJV)

 “Most teachers, especially those in the Middle East, have used some form of parable in their instruction, but none so exclusively as Jesus at one period of His ministry. During part of the Galilean ministry, the record states that “without a parable he spake not unto them” (Mark 4:34). From our Lord’s words (Matt. 13:13–15; Mark 4:12; Luke 8:10) we learn the reason for this method; It was to veil the meaning. The parable conveys to the hearer religious truth exactly in proportion to his faith, knowledge and intelligence; to the dull and uninspired it is a mere story, “seeing they see not,” while to the instructed and spiritual it reveals the mysteries or secrets of the kingdom of heaven. Thus it is that the parable exhibits the condition of all true knowledge; Only he who seeks finds.” - L.D.S. Bible Dictionary – parables


 “It is given unto many to know the mysteries of God; nevertheless they are laid under a strict command that they shall not impart only according to the portion of his word which he doth grant unto the children of men, according to the heed and diligence which they give unto him. And therefore, he that will harden his heart, the same receiveth the lesser portion of the word; and he that will not harden his heart, to him is given the greater portion of the word, until it is given unto him to know the mysteries of God until he know them in full.” – Alma 12:9-11 - The Book of Mormon


 “I've put in so many enigmas and puzzles in it that it will keep the Professors busy for centuries arguing over what I meant, and that's the only way of insuring one's immortality.” - James Joyce, author of the literary classic, Ulysses.


 Once upon a time there was a condemned man who had committed a crime. While some of the facts of his case are noteworthy for our purposes, his name is not important nor his crime, as are most of the people involved with this story. It sufficeth to say though that when the condemned man was confronted with his crime, he knew that what he had done was wrong and had properly realized that he had chosen poorly and did not try to deny it or the consequences thereof. He only explained that it was borne out of misplaced passion, desperation, deprivation, and/or foolishness, perhaps all of the aforementioned and more. But, he knew that he had to account for his error and make amends according to the laws of justice which govern us all.

 After being arrested and arraigned before the local judge who normally handled these cases, (by whom he also learned from his fellow accused, had a reputation as a being a noble, fair and equitable judge) he felt encouraged at his eventual prospects. He was however remanded into official custody and incarcerated, awaiting trial for the time being on account of his crime, being unable to make the required bail bond to stay out of jail. As such, he was housed at the local jail facility, where all common criminals are held awaiting trial and eventual judgment by those who are in authority to do so.

 After being initially processed into the jail, which included a humiliating nude strip-search and body-cavity examination that he thought inappropriate, unnecessary and personally violating, (he wouldn’t be the first to think such), he settled in the best he could under the circumstances. Soon he was introduced to his cell-mate and as such began the longest, loneliest and most grueling periods of his life.

 As common boredom goes in jail, after an initial, awkward period of forced companionship, he soon began making slow and careful verbal contact with his cell-mate to pass the time, and for no other reason, just to make conversation, as they both had a lot of time on their hands. He learned from his compatriot that he was himself awaiting trial for a similar crime; apparently they had more in common than he thought.

 In the process of criminal justice in the particular country where he lived, criminals awaiting trial are to be represented by an attorney, a lawyer, a counselor, an advocate, however you may term it. The condemned man eventually learned that he was assigned a public defender to represent him and make his case before the bar of justice, since he could not afford to hire his own. He also learned through the grapevine that his appointed attorney was not just any common, Joe-Blow lawyer (which is usually the case), but a prominent, wealthy man named Jesse H. Crites, Esquire, who came from a well-known, respected family, who had a first-class legal education from the finest law school in the country, who had himself in his youth been unfairly accused, convicted and punished for a time for a crime he had not committed and therefore felt compassionately compelled to offer his services to his fellow-man.

 Upon learning the meager facts about his legal representation, the condemned man could not help but feel that, on the surface anyway his chances for a quick examination and light punishment were hopeful, in spite of his guilt.

 His hopes however were soon dashed to pieces. Even with all the hyperbole he had heard about his acclaimed lawyer from the common gossip in the jail, he never (ever) got to meet him personally, which the condemned man thought odd initially. All information conveyed to the condemned man about his upcoming trial or case came via a letter or two, or three (and an occasional phone call) from his lawyer’s legal assistants or paralegals, who seemed anxious and overly eager to do more of the work of their boss than the lawyer himself, and also via his jailers and hearsay from his fellow prisoners, many of whom he eventually found out (interestingly), were also assigned the same public defender.

 After a prolonged period of waiting for his case to be adjudicated, the condemned man began to agitate in jail, both physically and mentally. He wouldn't eat or sleep very well because he was so worked up about it. His trial was continually postponed for a myriad of reasons, most of them technical in nature and beyond his control. The condemned man knew from common knowledge that in his country he was entitled to a speedy trial according to his so called Constitutional rights, but in reality he found that it was the opposite. Nobody seemed in a hurry to help the accused, as there were so many more deserving in normal society that didn't break the law purposefully, that had to wait for this or for that for the sake of bureaucracy or circumstance, and they took priority over some wretched, refuse of an accused prisoner. Eventually the condemned man, after much thought, decided to write a letter to the Judge himself, as he was the Supreme Authority over his case and what was about to happen, all in order to hurry his case. The condemned man was disappointed however, when he received a letter from the Judge’s office that stated that for the condemned man to address the Judge himself (even though he had absolute power in his case) without the accused using his appointed Advocate, was inappropriate in nature, and could possibly be interpreted as an unlawful attempt to circumvent justice. Notably, the judge also refused the man’s attempts to dismiss his attorney and be assigned another. I guess beggars cannot be choosers.

 Eventually the condemned man turned to his fellow prisoners for comfort and explanation, who had more experience in these bureaucratic matters, as most of they had been there longer than he. He couldn't help but build on their experiences, as that was his common surroundings. Surprisingly, he heard first-hand accounts from some of them that seemed to defy his own experience with his lawyer. Some of his fellow prisoners could not say enough about their positive experience with their grand Attorney (although under frank questioning, none of them claimed they had actually met him, ever). Some even produced personal letters (with signatures even!), claiming to be from the Attorney himself, that was enough for them to serve as a substitute and sustained their faith in eventual justice. Others prisoners however were not so jaded, and openly proclaimed that their common Advocate’s absence, by itself, spoke volumes about their supposed self-worth and mentioned him in a light as disrespectful as they could about him. Sometimes the condemned man himself, out of desperation alone, spoke to the jailers themselves about his case, even though they didn't have access to the full knowledge of all the details, even though they prided themselves as the visible administrators of justice as legally authorized by the law. They, without fail, in almost in every case reminded him that he himself was responsible for his own misery, as he had of his own volition chosen to break the law and therefore could not complain too much, a view that the condemned man himself could not logically digress from too much.

 As a last resort, the man confided his feelings to his immediate family about his hopeless case. His physical absence from them was sorely felt by himself and his family; he knew that they were suffering from his actions and misdeeds, perhaps even more than himself. Surprisingly though, they were not empathetic at all, or even sympathetic for that matter. The man was shocked to experience that his own flesh and blood seemed to side with the jailers, his absent attorney, and the even more absent Judge about the merits (or lack thereof) of his case. After this encounter and after carefully considering his situation, the man (as so often happens in jail) became hopelessly despondent and formed a noose from his bed-sheets and in the middle of the night (when no-one was looking) hung himself from the bars of his cell. His family and relatives (the same who weren't there when he really needed their vital encouragement), once they received word; mourned, eulogized and buried him.



Thursday, January 28, 2010

I'm pissed at God

I post the following article I've written recently after a recent period of soul searching. Originally it was for a Facebook group that I created, so I've slightly changed so of the wording to make it more compatible for a general audience. Comments are encouraged....



ARE YOU PISSED AT GOD FOR WHATEVER REASON?

Are you tired of him either not listening to your prayers or not responding with any acknowledgment one way or the other at all when you need Him the most?

Are you confused that he is referred to as a loving "Father", when the only father he comes close to being is a deadbeat dad. i.e. He's absent all the time, he gives you no personal individual attention, etc. As far as providing for you, that is usually inadequate as well. He usually depends on others (i.e the Holy Ghost) to pick up the slack and do his communicating for Him. That is, if you can understand your "feelings", because he seems to be limited to that expression for the most part. It does not help his case that he has conflicting scriptures on whether feelings of the heart can even be trusted in spiritual matters (see Jeremiah 17:9 contrasted with Luke 24:32). Anything involving tangible effort on his part is almost always ruled out. If you or I parented in the same manner God does then the authorities would take custody of your kids, scold you severely, and lock you up eventually.

Is it irritating to you that everything about him is inconsistent, hit-and-miss, never-know-what-you can-count-on-from-one-minute-to-the-next? He always has a caveat to fall back on as to why he can't be prompt or dependable in anything.

Are you tired of being told that you lack faith, when what you could really use is some simple clarity from the main Man himself, and not from one of his over-eager representatives who seem to think that God needs them to interpret his scriptures (see 2 Pet. 1:20) or do his bidding for Him on his behalf. Am I wrong or does it seem that by their actions they actually have less faith than the people they are trying to lead or correct? I was always taught that when it comes to approaching God that we could do so plainly and boldly (Heb 4:16) without fear of reprisal, even if it means saying that the emperor has no clothes. Am I wrong to assume that when he fails to respond in a way that I can understand that there is a serious problem?

Are you hurt when you are told that you are a sign seeker, demanding excessive physical proof for things of a spiritual nature when what you are really endeavoring to do is avoid being deceived by either charlatans or people with no true knowledge of anything spiritual, those who would use you for their own personal gain and glory.

Is it confusing to you that God's plan for humanity is founded and centered on the Atonement of his only begotten Son Jesus Christ, and as a pillar of this Atonement, the Resurrection was to be a witness to believers that he had risen from the dead. But then he proceeded to ascend into heaven and hardly hide-nor-hair has been seen of Him since then 2000 years ago. He might as well still be dead, because he's just as absent as if he was dead. I think the singer Sting said it best in one of his song lyrics when he wrote, "Father, if Jesus exists then how come he never is here?" I think talk is cheap as the saying goes. (Although for God, actually talking would be huge step in the right direction) For God to actually show up from time to time and do something meaningful instead of manipulating people would speak volumes.

Are you shocked to learn that a being who has all the wealth of the universe somehow inexplicably needs your money? And his self-called "ministers" are more interested in the contents of your wallet (as well as extracting as much free labor as they can get from you) than in the salvation of your soul?

Are you troubled that this life seems to be little more than a joyless existence, a laboratory for the Gods to exercise their sick curiosity (Abraham 3:25) and merely be a forum for them to see how far man can be aggravated, distressed and provoked before he breaks (Mosiah 3:19). Forgive me, but I cannot help BUT scoff at that kind of indifference.

Is this life a mass of confusion? Do you ever look around at all the death, disease, famine, suffering, ignorance that abounds on this planet and say silently to yourself (in the words of George Carlin below), "This is not good work. If this is the best that God can do, I am NOT impressed."

Are you sick of being told that God gave man his agency and that is why evil abounds in this world, when it seems that what they are really trying to do is make excuses for God's lack of taking the initiative in anything. It's as if mankind is to do all the work. And then God takes all the credit if and when good things result and blames someone or something else when it all goes south. You can't have it both ways God. It's your plan, you own it and all of it's fruits.

When you do try to do what is right, do you feel there is no incentive to do the right thing and that there is a fundamental lack of promptness in Him when it comes to encouraging that which is right and good by rewarding appropriately and in a timely manner? Do you feel his punishments when you screw up are far more prompt than his rewards when you have done good?

Yes, I am a sinner, I already know that and have never denied it and more importantly, I have already acknowledged it. But somehow or another I think if I was pure in some way, I don't think it would matter to Him anyway. I wasn't always this way. In a way I am still becoming. But in the in the relative innocence of youth I tried, I TRIED, hard to come to grips with what I observed and juxtaposed with what I should know. I understand well enough I think, that this life is to be a probationary period to be tried in the furnace of affliction. I just can also recognize that incessant misery is neither edifying or motivating. I was under the impression that "Men are that they might have joy" (2 Nephi 2:25). It does not take much of a brain surgeon to look around in this mortal sphere and realize that the ratio of joy to misery in this existence is overwhelmingly lopsided. But please don't dare to verbalize that dissatisfaction in any way, no matter how plain it is, lest you become accused of murmuring.(1st Nephi 2:1-12)

Are you surprised that if you dare point out any of the above points to any believer they immediately lose their so-called Christian charity and become hostile and almost threatening? It is as if you have skewered some cherished belief on their behalf. Trust me, I have no quarrel with the likes of anyone who craves the Deity that I have just described. But allow me to express my own honest dissatisfaction without accusing me of "kicking against the pricks." (Acts 9:5) No, I don't think I am smarter than God, but I am aware enough to know that I don't need to constantly taste dirt to know that I don't like it. The more I think about God and his gospel, the more glaringly apparent it is to me of the utter lack of any recognition of legitimate discontent.

Are you absolutely infuriated when you know that he possesses all power, all might, mind and dominion and will hardly ever use any of that power to do ANYTHING, one way or another? It's as if he could care less about much of anything. I once heard someone compare God to a slumlord, he shows up occasionally to harass you if the rent is late but when there needs to be some serious improvements made to the property, he will stall and hum and haw, have every excuse in the world to not do anything substantive. He is the walking epitome of exaggerated claims and false promises. The more I think about it, the more God seems to be little more than a disinterested administrator, and a poor one at that. Would I be amiss to suggest that before any Holy Being, like God, who takes it upon themselves to go thru the hassle of creating worlds and peopling them with their offspring, to actually give a shit?

I'm amazed when I come across people who think that once this life is over, somehow God is going to turn "nice" and eternity will be this joyful place and all the hassle we have endured will finally make sense. But if God is consistent I would dare guess that the next world will be similar to this one, with God constantly stringing you along with a carrot on the end of a stick like a donkey. And if you ever dare protest he'll bring that stick down on you with a vengeance.

Yes, in case you are wondering, it is exhausting to constantly churn these thoughts up in my mind and worse, give air to them here on the internet where others can mock at their pleasure. It's personally uncomfortable to never have any lasting peace and to know that continued silence from the heavens is to me and to me alone, a silent acknowledgment and validation that my claims really do not bother him that much. It is agonizing to me to see that God is unmoved by my pleading. Is this how you want us to follow your example God?

Do not comment unless you can take an honest look at what you believe and more importantly, WHY?

This is not a hate God article. I won't tolerate hate on here. I despise outright disrespect. I'm more hurt than anything I guess.

This is not an Atheist rant either. Oh, I believe in God all right, I just don't like what I've seen (or haven't seen for that matter) so far.